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[25 Oct 2004|08:51pm] |
Well, it's been a bit since I posted anything in this thing and I'm pretty sure noone cares =). Anyway, I finally told my mom and dad where I was. So, I geuss I should tell my friends now. I am in Wichita Falls, TX. It's right near the border of Oklahoma. I should have left Texas but then I wouldn't have had a place to stay. Not much more else to say besides the fact that I'm pretty much over my chemical addictions. I do partake in an occasional beer but that's it. Ohhh, I'm finally happy with myself. I could never say that truthfully before but now I can. It's a great feeling. Also, I should be back by Thanksgiving. The only thing about that is that I'll most likely just stay the holiday season then come back up here. It's a great place and it's so peaceful. I need peace in my life. I won't just come back up here to live though. They have a very cheap state college here and a cheap community college. So I have alot of options. I miss all of my friends and I'll see you all when I get home. <3
P.S. I made a new journal. If you still wish to read about my life just add ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) n3rdl0v3. I'm tired of being the sad little slacker.<3
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[29 Aug 2004|02:44am] |
gone to find a better me....
the real me...
a me that isn't dependent on drugs, alcohol, or people to be happy...
love you guys...
i'll be back...
i promise...
<3...
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[27 Nov 2003|10:49pm] |
Farmer: "well we loved Biscuit so much we wanted to keep her with us always. so we had her stuffed!"
*dramatic music*
Brian: "MOM!!"
Stewie: "Well i say someone must have said a funny cause your mother is in stitches! hahahaha. well i'll leave you to grieve."
i love that.
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[27 Nov 2003|10:11pm] |
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well' my turkey day didn't end up all that bad. i'm drunk and getting paid for it! yay jesus roxcks. those stupid management bitches wanna ruin my day why should i care what type of job i do. so i'm doing a shitty one. fuck them,. all the spanish speakers got told to speak english or they'd be deported and all the idiots got told to ask somebody who cares. if i get any complaints tomorrow i'll blame it on satan. i've drank 9 16 oz beers today and well i'm ready to pass out. i havent even eaten i hate this job. lick me bye...<3
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[27 Nov 2003|03:15pm] |
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although, i am having one of the worst possible thanksgivings ever. i would like to say Happy Thanksgiving to all the great people on my friends list! you all are extraordinary people that i am lucky to know. you people are actually some of the only people i like! so once again and have a better Thanksgiving than i am <3...
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[26 Nov 2003|03:44pm] |
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i'm in such a pissed off mood right now. i fucking have to work on Thanksgiving and right now my "manager" is working with me. i fucking hate her! she's lazy and she annoys the shit out of me. she fucking 4'7", has a high pitched voice, and shes some stupid ghetto bitch! i hate her so much. i'm 10x smarter than her and the fact that the only reason she's the manager is because i turned down the job! ahhhhhhhhhh then i say "hey, maria can we just kind of work out the schedule so we can just work 4 hrs on Thanksgiving?" and a second after i say that she says no! i told them tomorrow i quit and i'll be back on friday. she said if i do that i'm fired. ehhhh i'll most likely come into work cause i don't want to leave my other co-worker out to dry. it seems that me and angela will be the only ones working tomorrow evening.....and it seems that my manager who is supposed to work from 3-7 can't do it tomorrow because what what? plans to go out with her family tomorrow. ohhh really so did i you fucking bitch! shit i hate this. all i want to do is have a nice thanksgiving dinner with my family. the only people who havent abandoned me but its not gonna happen because i have to work. i'm gonna go mope and do a bad job today in hopes that i get fired.....later<3
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[24 Nov 2003|10:39pm] |
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Hacking up green and brown stuff and putting up with stupid people is not a good way to spend your Monday. i'm sick so it sucks! my nose was filled with these humongous gooey boogers this morning and i still have a runny nose. i'd better catch it! you see what i did i made a joke about a runny nose! haha anyway i'm a loser but i think you people already know that. i got my friend/coworker Martina a vibrator and some motion lotion for her birthday! she cracked up! she called me her "mothafucka" which i think is ghetto for guy i think is cool. she'll be the second person ever to think i'm "cool". ewww brown phlegmy thing. man i hate being sick. its like being healthy without the feeling good part =\....
i'm going going gone now <3
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[23 Nov 2003|01:35am] |
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this is the greatest picture anyone ever made for me.
my sister made it for me when she actually liked me....
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[22 Nov 2003|08:39pm] |
"And now here's Oli Williams with your Black-u weather forecast"
"IT'S GON' RAIN!"
I love family guy <3
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[21 Nov 2003|10:42pm] |
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yea i watched that movie. it was really good. not life changing shit that i already didnt know. mr heston is a dick though. i don't think it was right to hold huge NRA rallies after those school shootings. that just wasnt nice. i'd like to say that i do support our president eventhough i hate his fucking guts. if or when we all get blown up by a huge fucking bomb i'll be the first to say "i told ya so". i love my country. i may disagree with alot of things but hey that the way the world works. it seems like mr. moore tried to blame the media alot and its true there is alot of violence in the media. alot of it is unneccesary but hey people gotta make a living somehow and if that means injecting people with heavy doses of fear everday then so be it. everyone has to sell out sooner or later. in the end i think everyone is really responsible for themselves. being able to get guns didnt make those kids shoot up schools. the fact that they were fucking psychos made them shoot up the schools. ehhh thats just my view though. i'm a fucking nut too. <3
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[19 Nov 2003|06:48pm] |
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i have the biggest headache in the world right now! why do people have to be so god damn stupid!?!?!? "uhhhh the coke machine took my quarters," "well what the fuck do you want me to do you fucking moron! why don't you just kick the fucking shit out of the fucking machine" thats what i feel like saying. "ummm ummm my heater isnt working" "uhhh its not even that fucking cold outside you stupid bitch! its not like we live in fucking antartica!" god damn. never ever ever ever work at an answering service if you really don't like people that much. thats why my fucking hair is turning white. i swear i have fucking small patches of white hair. ohhh ohh get this. my work place is pretty fucking ghetto. so we let eacjother leave every now and then. so yesterday i leave really early and this new bitch snitches! i mean jesus christ man! i let you leave early 4 times already and as soon as i do you fucking snitch?!?!?!? jesus. i need a break. ohhh and when it fucking flooded i had people calling and asking why the power was out.....ummm did you not look out the window and see the huge fucking black clouds and all the rain? ohhh my. i am calm...breathe in...breathe out. the only reason i keep this job is because its easy and i get paid well. also because i don't get any shit from my boss. if i mess up she says "ehh whatever. it wasnt that big of a deal." being the bosses pet sure helps alot =\...yes i am an ass kissing hard-worker but i am not a snitch! time to get back to the daily grind....<3
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[17 Nov 2003|05:01pm] |
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if you live in houston you probably already know how fucking horrible it is outside. it took me 30 minutes to get to work when its only supposed to take 5! i was so fucking scared because the smurf is really low to the ground. the smurf also has no defroster so the windshield kept fogging up. so i had my sis roll down her window and some divkhead in a fucking huge god damn bronco comes zooming by throwing water into the fucking car and drenching kristina. well drenching her more then she was already drenched =\. so yea it sucked. i love the rain and all but only in moderation. i love the way the rain sounds when it hit the windshield of a car. the rain gets me hornay! heh jk....or am i ;). later fellow flood victims<3..
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[13 Nov 2003|07:34pm] |
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wow. i haven't been in this bad of a mood since ummm a long time ago. yea people are stupid and i hate most of them. some people are cool. everyone around seems to be out to annoy me today. my coworkers, my siblings, my mom , my dad, and especially KAZAA!! jesus christ i have to download a song 15 times to find one that doesnt go sdfaguildglasdhsdjklasdghvjkasghskjghjksdg in the middle of the fucking song! if you get a bad file erase it!! uhhh uhhh i'm cold!! i've been pretty lonely lately too. i havent felt that way in awhile. i threw myself into my position of loneliness anyway. i don't really talk to anyone anymore. i try to keep to myself. i'm afraid of friendship. my last set of friends screwed me over and had a big laugh about it and to add insult to injury my sister still hangs out with them....well shit who am i kidding i've felt like shit for the last 4 months or so. i try to keep a good attitude about everything but sometimes i just sit in the shower and cry. i've talked to some people and i hear "atleast you have a sense of humor about it" everytime..yea atleast i do. if i didn't i probably would have tied a belt around my neck by now. uhh uhh i'm sure glad i have a great sense of humor! heh that was a little dark humor there ummm yea. well shit uhh uhh i really got nothing interesting to say. i've been eating way to much! i've also been getting about 1 hr of sleep a night. i found a new cartoon i really like called FLCL. its about a kid who grows monsters out of his head. they have this cool band on the show called The Pillows too. i dled some of their music and they're pretty good. i'm going to get back to work. i'll see you guys around <3...
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| So god bless you all for the song you saved us..... |
[06 Nov 2003|04:47pm] |
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i don't even have to say it but the deftones fucking rocked!! it was quot possibly the greatest show i've been to. well we get there half way through PTW and i have to say they are really good live. so i was standing around just outside the mosh pit and some dood elbows me right on my fucking lip ring. so it starts bleeding =\. i just swallowed the blood and i went in and fucking elbowed him right in the fucking chest! so yea...i have an anger problem. anyway that was fun so after PTW went off everyone started crowding in for Deftones. so me, kistina, and her friend carly are all stuffed like little sardines together. it was fucking hot and everyone was schweaty as hell. it was kinda gross. the dood in front of me must have had a gland problem because he was sweating buckets. well yea i swear someone was caressing my ass! everytime time i would say "Hey someone is caressing my ass!" it would stop all of a sudden. i got molested @ the deftones concert! ok moving on Deftones came out singing "Minerva" and everyone is screaming and crowding together. you know its cool. same ol shit. been in worse but all of a sudden Kristina, my little sis, starts freaking out man! she starts crying and screaming "we got to get out of here!" so i have to lead her out but people are being dicks and not moving. so i have to push my way through. people were getting pissed and pushing me back. i had this one dood call me a little bitch. i laughed and pushed him again. it was kinda fun pushing people bigger then me around. anyway we finished watching the show from the railings and the security were being dicks and telling us we couldnt stand on it. well yea they did some bad ass songs. my favorites "Minus Blindfold" and "Feiticeira". i would have liked to hear "Boys Republic" but they put on an awsome i mean awwwwwwwwwwwsome show. o0o0o and now i have a new Deftones hoodie! yay me. well yea i'm gonna get back to work and stuff my face with some chinese food. Pepper steak and fried shrimp are my vices =\...<3
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[03 Nov 2003|10:51pm] |
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yay! deftones in 2 days mofuckas! *headbangs* yup now i have a migraine! that how hard i headbang...i'm like a hardcore headbanger! heh no i'm not i'm just and amatuer. i wonder who the greatest headbanger ever is. it would be cool to meet him. his neck is probably all fucked up from hardcore headbanging. damn that sucks...poor guy. well i've been playing aria of sorrow for the past 8 hrs. i kinda ignored work to play it. i'm addicted. its like crack and no i don't mean ass crack you sick pervs. you disgust me...in a kinky kind of way. well i've said to much and it is time for me to leave and stuff. yup i'm leaving....any second now...i'll be gone....yup<3
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[31 Oct 2003|07:29pm] |
damn this thing knows me pretty well!
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[30 Oct 2003|10:55pm] |
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if anyone has a GBA or GBA player for gamecube buy wario ware inc and castlevania: aria of sorrow now! those games rock. i played all day here @ work. GBA emulators rock! i also know what i truly want for my birthday......this!! i get a boner looking @ it *drools*. well time to go asswipes<3.
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[29 Oct 2003|04:10pm] |
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semi charmed kind of life baby! heh. i've had that song stuck in my head all day. the other day i had that selena song ,tu solo tu, stuck in my head all day. i get the dumbest songs stuck in my head. one time i went around all day sing blue daba dee daba something something something. i think i got yelled @ for repeatedly saying the same thing over and over and over. stupid sisters! anyway, i've found that i've been pacing alot more lately. i only pace when i'm thinking. so i geuss i'm thinking alot more and thats not always a good thing, eh. exactly a month from now i'll be 21. i'm excited but mostly i'm scared. i'm scared that if i don't do anything positive or great this year i'll be stuck in the same position for the rest of my life. however long or short that is. at the 15 i got the usual long drunken talk. everyone told me different things but were making the same point. i am in charge of making sure the next generation of our family is taken care of. i've heard that before but now its settling in. i want to use it to drive me towards something better but that night it just made me cry. ehhh i get emotional when i'm drunk. boy was i drunk. i had about 14 beers and 6 mixed drinks...mostly screw drivers. it was a fun night but of course stupid ghetto people ruin everything! i had to kick 8 dumbass kids out for drinking. one tried to talk shit but i pointed to the big ass black security gaurd and he shut up. so all in all it was a fun night. the next day i thought that i had lost or somebody had stolen my jacket. so i called the tux place on monday when they opened and told them. they told me it woul be $350 to replace the coat. i was like "OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!" and then almost shit my pants. i didnt have to pay cause it ended up my Tia Lisa had taken off with it. hmmm this journal entry is totally out of order. ehhh so sue me. o0o0o i've been reading stephen hawkings "A Brief History of Time" and that dood is a genius. well thats about all i have to say even if it doesnt make any sense. later folks<3.
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[25 Oct 2003|05:51am] |
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i just got done watching ninja scroll...again for like the 50 millionth time and all i have to say is awsomeness! everytime i forget about it and i watch it again i'm like "OH MY GOD THAT WAS SO FREAKING BAD ASS!" just like that and everything. i'm in a better mood. i have to be up for my sisters 15 in 5 hours so as soon as i ge outta work i'm taking my ass home to get some sleep. i hope this 15 goes as planned cause my mom planned it and she sucks @ planning! well uhhh uhhh i'm tired.<3
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